Whining

I know I'm whining.

Need to just suck it up - 

get on with life as I know it.

Why ask for more when I've got so much?

But there is this ache in me - 

a gap that just won't close...

Even if I squeeze my eyes tight

until the fireworks burst.

If I will it, try to force it - 

to forget, move on...

walk looking down, not up - 

I cannot shut the fuckin' door.

Maybe this will get easier.

I'll be able to hold the two

halves of my heart in my hand, 

and feel resolved.

But now there's no comfort, 

no peace, and no perks!

So just suck it up, Princess

and get on with it. Whatever.

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