Monday, 29 July 2013

Land down under


Travelling in a fried-out combie 
On a hippie trail, head full of zombie 
I met a strange lady, she made me nervous 
She took me in and gave me breakfast 
And she said, 

"Do you come from a land down under? 
Where women glow and men plunder? 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? 
You better run, you better take cover." 

Buying bread from a man in Brussels 
He was six foot four and full of muscle 
I said, "Do you speak-a my language?" 
He just smiled and gave me a vegemite sandwich 
And he said, 

"I come from a land down under 
Where beer does flow and men chunder 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? 
You better run, you better take cover." (Yeahhh!) 

Dying in a den in Bombay 
With a slack jaw, and nothin' much to say 
I said to the man, "Are you trying to tempt me 
Because I come from the land of plenty?" 
And he said, 

"Oh, you come from a land down under? (oh yeah yeah) 
Where women glow and men plunder? 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? (ooohh) 
You better run, you better take cover." 

We are.. 

Livin' in a land down under, 
Where women glow and men plunder, (yeahhhhhhhhhh) 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? (thunderrrrr!) 
You better run, you better take cover. 

Livin' in a land down under, 
Where women glow and men plunder, 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? (oooo yeahhhh!) 
Then I run, and then I take cover. (yea) 

We are... 

Livin' in a land down under, (underrrr) 
Where women glow and men plunder, 
Can't you hear, can't you hear the thunder? (oooo da da laa yeahhh!) 
Then I run, then I take cover. 

[Fades Out]

by Men at Work

Thursday, 25 July 2013

Force a space

Who are we fooling?

Force a space
between
so the gap
between
wanting
and reality
becomes
a distance
our soul shards
don't pierce.

Rehabituate instead.

Space to forget
our hearts beat
synchronicity in
different lives.
Time marks moments
find our measure
still our wanting

time to focus
seek peace
in the space
between.

Who says I'm on your timeline?


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Gap © ExChristian.Net blog

Decisions

I
Words are so powerful
they can rip the stars
from the firmament - 
get all tangled up 
and glitter there, lost 
among our heartstrings.

II
Kicking the leaves
down the pavement
I question everything.
We are older now.
17 years older.
We are old, yet new.

III
Have I really lived -  
grabbed everything
that came my way... 
having once felt 
the insistent breath
of death against my cheek?

IV
Is there an intoxicating flavour 
of happiness
I will likely never taste 
without you,
and I will crave it?
Is this love selfish?
Would fundamental structures 
break inside us, if we leapt?

V
I raise my face
to the icy wind
dry latent tears
behind my eyelids.
So much to gain,
a separate life to lose.

VI
I was never one to cast my dice to chance.
My gut and heart clench with certainty
yet my head rationalises, and thoughts
circle like birds on the sky.
I clench my teeth and my fists
on a decade's frustration.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Autumn leaves - Copyright Free Images

Whining

I know I'm whining.
Need to just suck it up - 
get on with life as I know it.
Why ask for more when I've got so much?

But there is this ache in me - 
a gap that just won't close...
Even if I squeeze my eyes tight
until the fireworks burst.

If I will it, try to force it - 
to forget, move on...
walk looking down, not up - 
I cannot shut the fuckin' door.

Maybe this will get easier.
I'll be able to hold the two
halves of my heart in my hand, 
and feel resolved.

But now there's no comfort, 
no peace, and no perks!
So just suck it up, Princess
and get on with it. Whatever.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Fireworks - Copyright Free Images

Unbalanced

I lost my head,
I lost my heart.

I found true love... 
in the moonlight.

I lost my equilibrium
trying to hold onto a wish.

I added more time... 
and I had a dream,
you kissed me.

Is your light my light?

Or just a beacon flashing
potential for probability?

Who says opportunity doesn't knock twice?

And if it does, do we let it in, 
or turn away and close the door?

If we wait too long, the cold North wind
may invite itself in, instead.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Beacon © Daryl Willcox Publishing Ltd

Wednesday, 24 July 2013

Blue skies


If ever there was a time
That you would say to me
This fire's burned out
Leaving only smoking black debris
I'd find a light to lead us
I'd find some meaning through it all
We'd search between the shadows
Cast across this wall

Please don't wait forever
Please don't throw it all away
I'm watching these blue skies turn to grey
And all these friendships fade away

If ever there was a way
That I could say to you
I'm lost in darkness
Searching for a way to make it through
And if the sky does clear up
I hope this wouldn't be the end
It's harder to be honest
Than to just pretend

Please don't wait forever
Please don't throw it all away
I'm watching these blue skies turn to grey
And all these friendships fade away

These clouded memories are seen through bloodshot eyes
I'm watching these blue skies turn to grey
If ever there was a time
If ever there was a way
Please don't wait forever
Please don't throw it all away

Chorus

by Blackpool Lights
Blue skies turn to grey - King Valley VIC © Jennifer Phillips

Tuesday, 23 July 2013

Sonnet XLIII

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain
Under my head till morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and listen for reply,
And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain
For unremembered lads that not again
Will turn to me at midnight with a cry.
Thus in winter stands the lonely tree,
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,
Yet knows its boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what loves have come and gone,
I only know that summer sang in me
A little while, that in me sings no more.

by Edna St. Vincent Millais

Jewellery

Locket by S.P. Front © Jennifer Phillips

Locket by S.P. Back © Jennifer Phillips
Locket message:

"You are the centre of my universe.
Surrounded by our children, who
like stars, reflect your radiant beauty.
Your allure is the same as gravity,
drawing me eternally towards you.
And your peace and tranquility,
like the wonder of space and time,
will be the inspiration of my heart
forever."

by S.P.
Locket by S.P Centre © Jennifer Phillips

Heart pendant by S.P. © Jennifer Phillips

Tree of life necklace by S.P. © Jennifer Phillips

Flowers necklace by S.P. © Jennifer Phillips

Saturday, 20 July 2013

Meet Florence

Florence is the newest soft toy I have made for my kids. They say she is a jellyfish. I made her out of an old skirt which I decided was too short... My son wanted her to have a heart, so he sewed a heart from some of the leftover fabric, and together we inserted it, and made her complete!
Florence the Jellyfish © Jennifer Phillips

Friday, 19 July 2013

Kids' craft

My 7 year old son's dragonfly.

© Jennifer Phillips


My 9 year old daughter's toilet roll people.

© Jennifer Phillips

Thursday, 18 July 2013

Read my mind


On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

I never really gave up on
Breakin' out of this two-star town
I got the green light
I got a little fight
I'm gonna turn this thing around

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?

It’s funny how you just break down
Waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soakin' my spine

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The teenage queen, the loaded gun;
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, a world unseen;
A city wall and a trampoline

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you jump
Tell me what you find when you read my mind

Slippin’ in my faith until I fall
You never returned that call
Woman, open the door, don't let it sting
I wanna breathe that fire again

She said I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine

Put your back on me
Put your back on me
Put your back on me

The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun
When you read my mind 

by The Killers

Auguries of innocence

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.

A robin redbreast in a cage
Puts all heaven in a rage.

A dove-house fill'd with doves and pigeons
Shudders hell thro' all its regions.
A dog starv'd at his master's gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.

A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.

A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm'd for fight
Does the rising sun affright.

Every wolf's and lion's howl
Raises from hell a human soul.

The wild deer, wand'ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus'd breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher's knife.

The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won't believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever's fright.

He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov'd by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov'd
Shall never be by woman lov'd.

The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider's enmity.
He who torments the chafer's sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.

The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother's grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgement draweth nigh.

He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar's dog and widow's cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.

The gnat that sings his summer's song
Poison gets from slander's tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy's foot.

The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist's jealousy.

The prince's robes and beggar's rags
Are toadstools on the miser's bags.
A truth that's told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.

It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro' the world we safely go.

Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.

The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;

This is caught by females bright,
And return'd to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven's shore.

The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar's rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.

The soldier, arm'd with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer's sun.
The poor man's farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric's shore.

One mite wrung from the lab'rer's hands
Shall buy and sell the miser's lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.

He who mocks the infant's faith
Shall be mock'd in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne'er get out.

He who respects the infant's faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child's toys and the old man's reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.

The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.

The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar's laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour's iron brace.

When gold and gems adorn the plow,
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket's cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.

The emmet's inch and eagle's mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne'er believe, do what you please.

If the sun and moon should doubt,
They'd immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.

The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation's fate.
The harlot's cry from street to street
Shall weave old England's winding-sheet.

The winner's shout, the loser's curse,
Dance before dead England's hearse.

Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.

Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.

We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro' the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.

God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.

by William Blake

Tuesday, 16 July 2013

Me - Time series

Me - 39 near Glenrowan, Victoria last week © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 35 © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 29 © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 26 © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 19 © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 12 © Jennifer Phillips

Me - 5 © Jennifer Phillips 

Me - 16 months © Jennifer Phillips

Me and mum - 3.5 months © Jennifer Phillips

I wish I was the moon


Chimney falls and lovers blaze
Thought that I was young
Now I've freezing hands and bloodless veins
As numb as I've become.

I'm so tired
I wish I was the moon tonight.

Last night I dreamt I had forgotten my name
'Cause I had sold my soul but awoke just the same
I'm so lonely
I wish I was the moon tonight.

God blessed me, I'm a free man
With no place free to go
I'm paralyzed and collared-tight
No pills for what I fear.

This is crazy
I wish I was the moon tonight.

Chimney falls as lovers blaze
Thought that I was young
Now I've freezing hands and bloodless veins
As numb as I've become.

I'm so tired,
I wish I was the moon tonight.

How will you know if you found me at last
'Cause I'll be the one, be the one, be the one
With my heart in my lap
I'm so tired, I'm so tired
And I wish I was the moon tonight.

I'm so tired, I'm so tired,
And I wish I was the moon
I'm so tired, I'm so tired,
And I wish I was the moon tonight.

By Neko Case
Neko Case

Monday, 15 July 2013

Island of sun and sensation

We are a fantasy parade...
You wear those shoes 
and I will wear the Delpy dress.
Board our ship of dreams
under a vermillion sky,
bound for the island 
of sun and sensation.

Frolic in soft white sands
before a gentle sea.
Couched in the arms
of our dreams we will dance 
'Heart of Gold' - 
a lingering embrace
under swaying palms, 
in the moonlight.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Vermillion Sky - from http://im04.thewallpapers.org/

Heart of gold


I want to live,
I want to give
I've been a miner
for a heart of gold.
It's these expressions
I never give
That keep me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.

I've been to Hollywood
I've been to Redwood
I crossed the ocean
for a heart of gold
I've been in my mind,
it's such a fine line
That keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.
Keeps me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm getting old.

Keep me searching
for a heart of gold
You keep me searching
for a heart of gold
And I'm growing old.
I've been a miner
for a heart of gold.

by Neil Young

Sunday, 14 July 2013

Boarding call

I buried the blades
rowing East to West.
Creating closeness,
making distance. 

Each natural wonder
forgot away
peace of you. 
And in the thundering
plague of Montana crickets-
you were no more
than a hurricane
to a rowboat. 

A great heart wind took me
Pacific North to South. 
I hailed your ship
and pushed through the silent Aye
of the needle of the Golden City,
out to sea searching 
for Elysium Isles. 

Loves' mercurial compass
charts all fools an odyssey 
and so I arrive at your port
moonburned and thirsty. 


© "Neon Veil" (All rights reserved)
Rowboat - Source: http://wallii.com/
We'll be fine

They seek

All on individual crusades, they seek.
Seeking is akin to yearning.
Looking to quell this, comes the search.
Some seek for love, others to spend their lust.
Some want to connect.
Some hunger for satiety.

Journey to escape or run to be free?
Some seek, and find, yet fail to keep.
Looking for beauty?
Beauty is a pearl in the depths.
The mirror's surface reflects vanity or truth.
Seek not more, for there lies disappointment.

Some search for the meaning of life.
Some seek to perfect, but nothing's perfect.
Some leave their search to others - hitch a ride.
Oblivion claims some.
Some look for the dark of the cave,
and others seek to dance in the moonlight.

Some look for safety or a place to hide.
Seek to repeat or renew - hindsight to correct?
Seeking is constant because once they find what
they thought we were looking for - the
satisfaction slips through clenched fingers,
and they journey, seek again.

The goalposts shift across the sands of time.
Battered and weary, seekers travel land, sea, time -
collecting lessons and scoring scars,
looking forward, while looking back.
Some seek repose, solace, or simply peace.

Seekers search to their final resting place. RIP.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
© Jennifer Phillips 

Saturday, 13 July 2013

King Valley

Powers Lookout - looking down at King Valley, Victoria - Australia © Jennifer Phillips

On religion

"I had a second breakthrough listening to Richard Dawkins explain his theory that religious faith is a misfiring of the gratitude impulse. As he explains it, as herd animals, human beings are hard-wired to feel gratitude and repay debts: reciprocity holds the herd together. But good things also happen for reasons outside human agency. After a week of rain, your wedding day dawns fine, warm and sunny. You feel immense relief and gratitude, but whom should you thank? Who can you repay? A god, of course, that's who. After my own experience, I understand the need to give thanks to something. So as an explanation of why humans invented gods, it makes perfect sense to me. I think that's the essence of my lack of belief, in fact: that it just makes sense."

"Atheism is more attached to questions while religion is more attached to answers. The religious fear doubt, the atheist celebrates it. When it comes to the really big questions – like the nature and meaning of the universe – my lack of knowing does not bother me at all. I admire cosmologists and astronomers whose curiosity about the space that surrounds us drives them to explore, ask questions and posit hypotheses. When they discover something, I read with interest the stories about it in the media. But just as it took us millennia to discover every corner of our planet, I suspect, as far as knowing the universe is concerned, we're a little like a few tribal Neanderthals a couple of hundred thousand years ago setting off into an unknown ocean in a rickety canoe."

"American physicist Lawrence Krauss told the audience at the 2012 Global Atheist Convention in Melbourne that scientists now understand the universe is about 70 per cent empty space and 30 per cent dark matter, and that everything else we can see – stars, galaxies and so on – makes up less than 1 per cent. "Cosmology has taught us you are far, far more insignificant than you thought," he said. I don't need the universe to have meaning or purpose. I'm happy for it just to be. If a meteor is hurtling towards earth as I write, no doubt I will be momentarily dismayed when I realise the world and everything on it is about to be destroyed, but does that mean it matters? In the greater scheme of things, I doubt it."

"That's the thing about us atheists: far from the arrogance we are usually accused of, ours is a fundamentally humble position – we do not believe humanity is in any way special. For the atheist, there is no vertical structure to the universe, with a god at the top, men next, followed by women, then all the animals, reptiles, fish and insects, with amoebae and bacteria at the bottom. For atheists, particularly when confronted with the vastness of the universe, amoebae are us."

By Jane Caro in "Losing my religion" - The Age - June 30, 2013

Fire and ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

by Robert Frost
Ice - Copyright Free Images

Friday, 12 July 2013

Tastes electric

Our tongues met
before our lips
spoke.
Our bodies familiar
to the pleasure
only strangers
can remember
in forgetting
convention.

And now adrift
from an afternoon
on the island of sun
and sensation.
An unexpected storm
punishes our boat and my body
rowing from the lightning licking
at your naked laughter
that smells of sex and smoke.


© "Neon Veil" (All rights reserved)
Boat in storm

Thursday, 11 July 2013

What will it cost you?

"If this is love, if there is even the possibility that this is real love, what do you care? What will it cost you to live it out? Too much? Everything? Now that it has presented itself to you, could you dare to imagine turning away from it for anything or anyone?" 

She lit a cigarette and pulled at it fiercely. She had already finished talking.

"Did it ever happen to you?" I asked. 

Her cigarette was nearly a stub by the time she answered.

"Yes, I think it did happen once to me. But I was afraid the sentiments would change. I was afraid of some form of betrayal and so I walked away. I betrayed it before it could betray me. And maybe I thought life inside that intensity would suffocate me. So I chose a sort of pleasant, safe compromise, an emotion less than passion and more than tolerance. Isn't that what most of us choose?" she asked.
By Marlena de Blasi in "A Thousand Days in Venice"

Reductio ad absurdum

He pulls up anchor
to this dimension
and drifts
untethered but bound
to an unclaimed continent.

She dives
deep into the galactic
synaptic sea
separated
by potential
of wake and dream.

They have found
not the land of could
or should have been,
in this embracing
of soul and lips
and hips and scars.

This is a tale
that eats its snake,
Never odd or eveN.
He and she are cupids'
arrow in paradox*,
hearts moving impossibly
in a parallel rhythm.

*Reference to Zeno's Arrow Paradox and the Quantum Zeno effect.


© "Neon Veil" (All rights reserved)
Snake - Copyright Free Images

White Eucalyptus

White Eucalyptus © Jennifer Phillips

Wednesday, 10 July 2013

A blessing and a curse

I am feeling while trying not to feel.
Everything just feels like a prelude - 
as if all that has gone before
was not really real...
That like a flower only partially opened,
I need you to truly bloom.
A blessing and a curse.


© Jennifer Phillips (All rights reserved)
Partially opened - Copyright Free Images

Dew

"Walking over dew-spangled grass is like walking across a carpet of jewels."


by Jennifer Phillips
Dew - Copyright Free Images

Holding up the moon

"Living as a couple never means that each gets half. You must take turns at giving more than getting. It's not the same as a bow to the other whether to dine out rather than in, or which one gets massaged that evening with oil of calendula; there are seasons in the life of a couple that function, I think, a little like a night watch. One stands guard, often for a long time, providing the serenity in which the other can work at something. Usually that something is sinewy and full of spines. One goes inside the dark place while the other one stays outside, holding up the moon."

by Marlena de Blasi in "A Thousand Days in Venice"

We have lost even

We have lost even this twilight.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
While the blue night dropped on the world.

I have seen from my window
the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops

Sometimes a piece of sun
burned like a coin between my hands.

I remembered you with my soul clenched
in that sadness of mine that you know.

Where were you then?
Who else was there?

Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly
When I am sad and you are far away?

by Pablo Neruda
Piece of sun burned like a coin © Jennifer Phillips